2004-03-05 - 10:41 a.m.
So strange…got my minidisk player, felt like Christmas. Had an argument with l. yesterday (can’t spell him name now). Felt bad, angry, happy…confusing. I don’t like him anymore. I’ve deleted everything from my life which included him, was going to send it back to him, but can’t be arsed, will keep it instead in the wardrobe, with all the other nasty things. I feel sorry for him.
I wonder if he’ll read the letter I sent. I’m going to return his parcel when it comes. I think, I expect he’ll call me on my birthday. Which will be interesting to see what day he thinks it is.
I think he misunderstood why I wanted to be the same on the phone as before. I don’t think we were really having a relationship, and if he did change, I’m not sure I’d be bothered to speak to him. He is not my friend, never has been, and I don’t think he’d know what friends mean. He thinks I’ll just fit right in, be sweet and happy on the phone, never needing effort or work. Well that’s not fucking friends!
