2002-08-04 - 1:15 a.m.
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well the news is that the company I worked for went belly-up. No big deal. I got a phd post starting Oct. And right now my feet are burning to be in Israel in the company of a good friend under the midnight stars. I love A'dam, paw what soppy emotions for a city which does not beg them. I adore A'dam. But there is nothing but dreams which hold me here, nothing concrete. And what is the point of life, selling your blood short? Each time this happens I laugh at my stupidity, that I fall into the same trap twice is not foolish, its a habit. I always wondered why I didn't get into more trouble in A'dam, and I concluded that I just could not be bothered, too much effort. Now I wonder if its because I adore the view for the cliff side, staring down into the crashing waves. Of course to get that view you have to climb up the rocks. And so now I'm nearly looking down, about to change my life, and I wonder if I could just cling here for a little while, or maybe the view is better off the other side.
One though of truth we touched today was that the world is full of possibilities, and you just have to be desperate enough jump for them. So grab a parasol and one ..two. . .
